Thanks, Jannaku... I appreciate the feedback. I just got my internet connected today, so maybe I'll be here more often from here on in. This is a wonderfully supportive community for which I'm very grateful.

Right now I'm feeling co-dependent. I can't stop wondering how he's doing, if he got moved into his van alright, or if he's still living in a tent, or if he found someone else to move in with. Of course since I'm 700 miles away I won't know... there has been no contact. I only know what my friend emailed to me that he was having trouble getting his van out of storage. That kind of set me off... into thinking he might still be living in the tent I gave him just before we split up. But why should I even care? That's what I'd like to know. I wish I could stop thinking about him entirely.

I thought about telling my friend I didn't want to hear anything else about him, then realized I can't do that yet, because it isn't true. In fact, I want to know everything. But I don't want to be around him anymore. How sick is that? I don't know why I can't stop these obsessive thoughts.

Meanwhile my situation is much better - I was able to move into a very nice apartment and have everything I need.