I so related when you said that you hated your husband and felt you needed to leave him. In my case that was always PMS and never bp. But I don't get super irritable with my bp.

I don't seem to get PMS anymore and I think it might be because of the lithium. In general I don't get that emotional anymore at all which bothers me some but I don't miss the PMS craziness. I keep hoping for the end of my periods as I'm almost fifty, but they keep coming

Good luck. As someone here said, BCP can kill your libido so keep that in mind.