Also, remember that you are not alone. Suicide might seem appetizing on a bad day... but when you're having a good day, remember that you would not be having that good day if you had succeeded in your attempt. Things will always get better. And perhaps it's not always as simple as "just be happy" but as soon as you are depressed, your own negative thoughts and feelings are your worst enemy. Go out and do something with someone. Being socially awkward is not all bad! I am, and I have some of the most amazing socially awkward friends I could ask for. Try approaching an odd-ball and just be yourself. But whatever you do, don't sit around by yourself for too long, and DON'T overthink things. At least not until you get a more positive mindset!