I've read this post as well as the one where you explain your dislike of other people's company - are you in any sort of therapy? Some people just aren't the affectionate sort and prefer no one impacting their personal space. Whilst i'm personally alright with mild affection i know i prefer solitude and the company of my own thoughts and perhaps this is also the case for you. In terms of kissing, i think it heavily depends on WHO you're sharing the experience with but even then, certain techniques may be preferred and it might be best to keep the act short and void of anything that makes you unnecessarily uncomfortable. I would still keep an open mind but again this may well be something you don't have a preference for. However, as other poster's have pointed out, there are ways of expressing love for someone that involve less contact but are still affectionate. Shoulder rubs, eskimo kisses, hand/feet/head stroking being such examples. As long as you set the pace and are able to take a break when you need too, this might be a way of building a better idea of what you feel you can and can't do. I hope i've been of some help, all the best.