I was married for 20yrs to someone I had to leave...I still, more so as I age (am also 60) find myself having fantasies of reunion, change that cannot occur, wanting to know (we have adult children and occasional contact).....and I recently had a 'relationship' that triggered all the very old stuff.....it has been very hard to let go of this person who did not help me or treat me well as he lacked empathy, unable to reciprocate, left me almost broke financially,
I don't understand what he triggered in me that caused this, it has taken over a year to feel that finally I am letting go of something crazy making....
I have set goals for the rest of my life that are important enough to me that I don't think anyone can interfere. I also am staying to myself, good and bad, and decided I want just a few friends and no more lovers. Relationships, for me, have nearly always interfered with my own plans. I don't need that again. It has taken a long time but I feel I am really starting to move in the right direction for me. My heart goes out, my thoughts also. Hang in there. It is a very painful transition...