Hi Scarlioni, welcome to PC!

It seems like you are in so much agony over your IBS. I'm not laughing at you here, it is a valid reason and a valid medical condition that you can't help having.. just like mental illnesses. It's real, and no one wants it.

It seems that the onset of your anxiety is your medical condition. How do you feel when you're in public? Pardon me since I do not know much about IBS.

It's great that you've researched on the symptoms of depression. Most of us started off that way, at least for me. I knew what I was getting into, that this was not something I could control anymore. Have you ever considered forms of help? Have you ever talked to someone you trust?

It appears that you're lost about what to do. That's normal. Initially I too, was lost as to what to do. Have you explored options, like maybe getting books on self help, going to your GP or crisis lines? It's really good though that you've started posting on PC. It shows that you're really trying and that's commendable!

Hang in there! We're all here to help

htn