This somewhat goes with "Do you miss the "old you?" post by PumpkinEater.

Ever since I started treatment/medication my mind doesn't work the way it did before. Everything is so difficult to be sharp, or to understand. When I took tests this year I failed almost everyone... My mind just doesn't remember, or focus, or anything the way it use to. It's like taking off one's glasses to life that use to be filled with too crisp a picture.

I find it hard to read, spend lots of time in stimulating environments, even hold a conversation sometimes. I'm so scared for what kind of job I can hold, how I will be able to be sharp enough to continue living.

I worry for tomorrow... What am I without my mind?
How will I be what I want to be without my mind more like it.

Sorry for the long post, thanks for reading.

Lillyleaf