Hi everyone!
I´m new here and haven´t written anything on this forum before. My native language is not English so sorry for all the possible mistakes.

I don´t really have a question, I just need to vent and let out some steam. I´m confused and sad and happy, all at the same tame. I just got out of upper secondary school a few months ago, graduating with the best marks in my school. Couple of days ago I found out that I have gotten into the university that I have always hoped to get into. Sadly in order to study I have to move to a bigger city 69 miles from my current hometown.

One of the huge changes (and oh how i HATE changes ) that happen upon moving is having to end therapy with a T with whom I get along very well and have been working with for a bit over three years, during the whole time I was in upper secondary school.

On one hand I am very excited because I got into my dream school and get to live in a city that I absolutely adore, but on the other hand I am devastated for having to end therapy. I worry constantly: what if I´m not ready? What if I start to go crazy? What if I can´t manage my anxiety in the hectic environment of a big city? I am a small town girl, lived in the same place my whole life, what if i don´t make it out there? Worrying like this is quite a setback for me since my T has been trying to teach me how to stress less and I thought I was learning I have been managing my anxiety and panic attacks better for almost a year now but the constant support from my T has played a big role in it. What if I lose all the progress made during the last three years once I leave therapy?

I know I could search a new therapist from the city but I would rather try on my own first to see whether I have learned enough to make it. T says that she believes that i´ll manage and that asking for help isn´t a bad thing if needed. My problems are a lot better and less urgent than they were couple years ago and a part of me believes that i will manage without therapy at least for a while. I´m just sad and sort of scared about ending a successful therapy with someone who has really been able to help me.

Somehow it seems that other aspects of my move don´t seems as dauntingly scary as ending therapy because I will maintain regular contact with my friends and family. The T relationship however just ends. Going from sessions once a week to no sessions at all in just three weeks after my T´s vacation is a big deal for me.

I will talk about these things in therapy before I leave in September but my T is on holiday for four weeks since last week and I just needed to tell someone what I feel.

Thanks if someone read through this overly long rant with lots of grammatical errors and spelling mistakes