Its so not good. My job is the only thing in my life that keeps me going...If I lose this job I have nothing left that I care about but now I just never want to go back

I pretty much don't talk about my depression at work, its not a secret but I don't advertise it either. One of the staff members today asked me why I'm so miserable all the time and so I explained to her that I have depression but that I try not to let it into my work. I know that I do let it affect my work, especially recently but thats another point.

At this point, her, another member of staff and a senior manager to me all pretty much ganged up on me and started saying that depression doesn't exist and that its a choice you make to be depressed!

They said you can choose to overcome it and there is no such thing as chemical depression and that I should just be strong and stop feeling sorry for myself.

I tried to explain that you wouldn't say to a diabetic "for gods sake just start making your own insulin and pull yourself together" so why is it okay to say to a depressed person " pull yourself together" its not like I can control my chemical levels is it.

Then they started talking about ant-depressants and that only weak stupid people took them and as much as I argued that some people need them just to function at a reasonable level, that they probably pretty much saved me last year they just shouted me down

I'm so upset, I just felt so attacked, if a friend hadn't come along and told them to shut up because she knew how upset they were making me I think I would have cried right there on the shop-floor.

It all sounds so stupid and petty written here but my self-esteem is so low anyway and I can't deal with people thinking badly about me.

I just don't want to go back, I want to hide because I can't deal with this at the minute.

Sorry for ranting, I just needed to tell people who understand how I feel.