As hard as it is to reveal the intense emotions and thoughts I have I've found it to be better than the extreme danger of not telling the truth to my pdoc. As I say this I am also struggling with the same issue because I have a new pdoc who only spends 10 mins with me every 3rd month for med management. There is not much time to talk. I'm in the process of getting back with my old psychiatrist because he spent much more time with me. I hope you are able to work this out........just like I hope I can work it out for me. Well, at least you know you are not alone--if that helps any.....D