I was pretty well checked out for around 2 years. I got there after a few really rough years and eventually deciding to think positive and be just fine with whatever came my way. That didn't work out so well- I ended up ignoring my true feelings so much that eventually I felt nothing. I watched my mother take her last breath and felt nothing. I lost all interest in family, friends and activities. By the time I finally snapped out of it I had lost my wife (when she said she was leaving I didn't even react), my family was broken, all my friends were gone, and I'm losing my house now.

I sometimes find myself wishing that I could go back to that state of numbness but then realize that it's so destructive that I'd much rather feel all of the horrible pain and loss I'm feeling now than ever go there again...