This really gets at me because i think that i might have some kind of autistic spec disorder and the things is most everyone in my family just doesn't pay attention to one another. I cant and dont want to 'blame' anyone for my lack of treatment/diagnosis, but i wish that more could have been grasped at an earlier age that i wasnt 'normal'. It took ten years for me to finally see it for myself and now i have to go through the trouble of everything because i'm an 'adult' and its the hardest thing in the world