I like arethusa's response. I resisted meds for a long time myself. I hate them but I finally got on them because if it didn't, as arethusa said, I would have been dead. I built myself quite the pharmacy trying to find the right medications, at one time being on over six meds, but I fought my pdocs to find the minimal amount of medication to take and now just take two. I genuinely wish that I had started taking meds thirty years ago. how different life could have been. the difference they have brought to my life is amazing. not wanting to die every day. the mood instability irrationality gone. if I would have known then what I know now, I would have gone on meds in a heartbeat.