Hi and welcome to PC. you will find a lot of support here. You have lots of reasons to be unhappy with life and lots of reasons to be happy. You have done much to change your circumstances. Maybe you are not on the right antidepressant. I know it took finding the right one for me. wellbutrin changed my world after trying several others that didn't do anything for me. I also focused on good things about me. when ever I thought something negative, I would say "yeah but, im.....insert a positive thought to counteract the negative thought that I had had. it started with just one positive thing and soon I had a whole list of positive things to say about myself. I too am a fat pretty girl who cant exercise. I feel no man would ever want me but I am happy being alone. I enjoy my freedom. youre not alone here. keep posting.