Hi, MikkiM89.
You could consider joining a grief support group that is close to where you live. Grieving over a loss of a loved one has no set pattern or time limit. No one grieves the same way with the same behaviours or feelings. If possible, a grief counsellor would be helpful for you.
Also these links may help you in connecting with other PC members who are grieving(and feeling alone) as well:
Grief and Loss - Forums at Psych Central
http://forums.psychcentral.com/other...st-people.html
http://forums.psychcentral.com/other...oneliness.html
Caregivers Support - Forums at Psych Central
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