I hesitate to just say, "Yes, you're dissociating," because I'm concerned that you and I might mean very different things with the same term.
I hear you saying you're zoning out, feeling like you're not "you" or not "real," and that you're experiencing memory issues. Well, yeah, that *could* be described with the term "dissociation," but not as a diagnosis or psychological condition. Lots of people have these experiences. Dissociation exists on a continuum and is basically synonymous with "zoning out." It's a question of a) degree and b) disruptiveness for you.
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