It makes perfect sense.....I know for me, I have always aimed at staying within a specific range & when I didn't watch...it went out of control the other way....something I promised myself I would never allow to happen again.....but sometimes when that upper range gets hit, disordered eating is the easiest way of controlling the weight.....the trick is to not allow the disordered eating turn into the ED of anorexia again & allowing it to have the control......the difference is WHO IS IN CONTROL????

I will probably never exist without disordered eating problem for me is that it's really easy for stress & trauma to turn into anorexia & if me weight is already at JUST THE SAFE PLACE, it has no place to go but too low. It's really a fine balance line to walk & it's not easy to keep the control because for me, loosing weight can have it's own life & power. Staying within the healthy range is not that easy....there are days when I eat out with friends & feel like eating a few extra snacks right after the 1st of the month when I buy groceries. It's almost like a tight-rope walk that one does with the numbers on the scale.

I think it's important to be in control of those numbers ourselves....but in control to keep them at a healthy place....not the control that can set in when we do start so loose in order to stay within that balance.

For me, I think I will always have some level of disordered eating in my life...as long as I don't allow that disordered eating become the ED again....the battle that is ongoing IMO....here today, gone tomorrow, then back again.....as long as one can control the weight within the healthy range & be able to stop the disordered eating in either direction once the limit has been reached through one's own self-control....then is when the ED no longer exists IMO.