Hi Chrissy99. You've already got friends here don't you? People have read your posts and answered them so you have some friends now. Isn't that good? What I would like for you to do is to speak to your parents,school counselor, nurse, or trusted teacher. Let them know how you are feeling. It's important for you to do this really soon. You shouldn't have to be feeling this way. You can get help and learn to feel better. You were given some suggestions for forums on this site and they are really good ideas. You can open up and trust that what you say will be respected. That's what this site is all about.
You can post here as often as you want to and we will be here to listen and care about you.
Go get some help OK?
Good luck and I hope you feel better soon.