I get what you're talking about. When I was depressed there were plenty of times when I was just numb, an empty feeling, I was empty. It was horrible. I self injured to be able to feel something... and yes, I agree, I'd much rather feel all of the horrible pain and loss than not feeling anything at all...

But as it is now, I just can't handle the overload of feelings when something is triggering... if someone raises their voice for example I get a lot of anxiety although the yelling has nothing to do with me.