Truth is this was what was going on: I came to the doctor saying evil spirits were chasing me and I thought they were going to get me and I even heard their voices in my head. It sounds pretty psychotic I've been told. He asked me questions which I think have to do with schizophrenia:
am i very suspicious of people? do i feel like people plotted against me? and things like that. he asked me too about the hallucination whether I actually heard an external voice or it was inside my head. Well it was inside my head, I didn't hear it like I can hear a radio, and he told me that's something similar to an hallucination but not an hallucination. I'm really scared.
Now it's over but for a few days I barely could sleep because I was so agitated. I told my mother I don't wanna keep seeing this doctor because I don't trust him and she told me it's okay, but that the fact I'm taking meds who are useful for schizophrenia doesn't mean I am schizophrenic. Lately I'm always thinking about schizophrenia...I thought I was schizophrenic. I am afraid about the deanxit banning. why it is banned in a few countries? That scared the hell out of me. This doctor worries me a lot because he denies also the existence of DID, but at the same time, he's really old and must be really experienced, I mean, if he was such a bad professional he wouldn't be there...