I get so moody it starts coming out of my hands and feet and I stop eating because I feel so sick I'm about to puke and I need to ****ing slow down or crash but is it really that bad or am I just making it up? God damn it's so confusing when your self-love and your self-hate are both maxed out at the same time and it's just so much that you hate yourself for being so damn full of yourself that it makes you want to curl up into a ball and just EXPLODE!

That's what I get for being a broken record and running out of meds again.