Hi, Pandora, welcome to PsychCentral (PC). I take it you are in Finland?

Can you visit your T on holidays at all, have a well check or something occasionally when you are visiting back that way? I would not get too worried about the future, it's not here and could go well probably more likely than ill (since you did so well so far in school). I would remember the good and hard situations you lived through the last 3 years rather than worry about the future.