This is kinda odd for me. I've never spoken about this to anyone except very recently my doctor but I am looking for input from other who can empathize. I am in graduate school for criminal psychology and while doing a paper I came across a disorder called female sexual dysfunction disorder. I am not usually one to diagnose people or myself because it seems everyone has a little of some disorder but as I read this information it clicked in my brain.

I began having sex at 17 and in 32 years I have had 16 partners. I have not enjoyed any of these sexual encounters but not because I didn't want to. It has been a frustration for me my entire life and I just thought it was me. I value self control very highly and am not one to ever lose control so I thought my control issues were to blame. That I just wouldn't let myself go enough. Now I don't think that's it. I have been married 2 times and both have cheated on me. There is never a good excuse for cheating but in their defense it's hard to stay faithful to a woman who has no emotion in the bedroom.

I am getting married Saturday to a wonderful man (K) who has rapid cycling bipolar I disorder. He has an extremely high sex drive. Until this man I have never really been that bothered by my lack of emotion during sex but now...it really bothers me. I don't want to lose this man for any reason. I find him extremely attractive and have no issue desiring to have sex with him. All the correct reactions and feelings are there at first but as we get further into it they just abruptly stop and don't come back no matter what I or he does. I am able to orgasm but only sometimes and usually simply because he hit the right spot and it just happens but it's never incredibly satisfying the way it should be.

I went and spoke to my doctor about it and she prescribed Wellbutrin for depression and it's supposed to help with all those feel good feelings as she put it. I will admit that I can feel a bit more than I did before and the last couple times we had sex I did orgasm when he was on top which has never happened before.

I would just like some input from others who know about this as to what has helped them the most. I have a 39 year old man at home who still has 6 pack abs and incredible biceps and dang it I want to enjoy him!!! Please help!