I'm tempted to think the depressive thoughts are from Satan
Ya know... I used to think that way when my depression and anxiety first came on. Nothing I did by way of faith or religion worked. I went the whole route; the laying on of hands, rebuking Satan, all that stuff. Nothing!
It's a physical ailment, Hun. Medication and therapy is the way to go. Meditation helps a great deal but it all needs to be positive. Picture yourself where you want to be in the next step of your recovery. What God gives you is the strength to keep on keeping on.
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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.