I guess what I want to know most is does he know the horrible things he's saying at the time? Is it kind of like an out of mind experience where his brain and his mouth are on completely different levels or does it just snap and take over. I know he remembers what he says and does because as soon as it's over he apologizes and usually says i'm an *****. For a man so in control I would like to know how out of control mentally this makes him.