As some of you may know, I recently had to resign from my job due to a relapse of my Bipolar Disorder and I am currently going through the long process of applying for benefits (namely Employment and Support Allowance). Due to this, I only have about £60 income per week and this has to cover rent, food, phone bill, credit card payments and medication.

For now I am having to live mostly off my credit card - just for food and life essentials and due to this I am in nearly £500 of arrears. I have a wonderful camera which cost me a total of £800 including kit but now I'm going to have to sell it for just under £500 just to afford some clothes and to pay off my credit card.

I am SO fed up of these constant relapses. I would have thought that, being known by the services for more than 4 years, they'd have found a way to make me able to function better and remain stable long enough to hold down a job for more than a few months!

Today I've collected by first prescription for Sertraline (switching from Citalopram today) when I've been on it before and it wasn't effective! Apparently I'm in consideration for Lithium but I can't be given that due to my suicidal behaviours so I have to wait until I'm more stable to go on a mood stabilizer! Catch 22 alert!

It's a real shame because photography was one of those hobbies that made me happy. It was such a therapeutic activity for me and now I have to part with it just to afford to live

Here's some of my photos, just to be sentimental (obviously a lot of them I can't post because I don't have the permission of the people in them, aside for one):





















I shrunk the pictures down and lowered the quality so hopefully they won't take too long to load!
RB