Thanks, RTS. I guess with this recent rupture, the termination threat, us trying to work through the rupture, T being on vacation, my unemployment running out and my insurance capping, I feel really out of sorts about it all. We are just starting the trauma work, so now would be the time to stop - before I get fully entrenched in it. At the same time, I don't want to walk away in the midst of it. I want to get through it and live a more satisfying life. Being isolated, withdrawn, depressed, fearful - it's no way to live.

I've thought about getting a part time job - but I hate the idea that it would make me unavailable for interpreting work. One hour of emergency work is the equivalent pay of 6 hours at a crap part time job. Once my mom gets back from her trip, I am going to make myself available around the clock for assignments and will notify my manager that I am gung-ho on being available for them as much as possible - overnights, middle-of-the-night emergency calls - whatever it takes. And I am searching for jobs and applying every day. Something good will come of this. It has to.

I was also planning to look into joining other agencies, so I'd have greater opportunities for getting assignments. Unfortunately, in looking at the agencies in my state, they require you to have certain certifications - and in order to get those certifications, you have to have a bachelors degree. I have no college background at all. Disheartening.