Oh Phillygirl, I have been there many times as I have fought depression all my life. It runs deeply in my family. I am presently on wellbutrin and prozac and if it hadn't been for these meds, I wouldn't be here typing to you, so trust me, I know how you are feeling.
It sounds like you are at a spot right now where you are feeling less depressed but have felt that for so long, you now don't know "how" to feel. Take it slowly but you can do it. You can start to take your life back and start having actually good feelings and feelings of satisfaction.
I wish you and the others all the best.
Be good to yourselves,
Linda