Okay, PoppyPrincess. What's going to be the recovery plan for you?

Are you medication resistant? Has it been confirmed by your psychiatrist?

Will your insurance cover you if you make arrangements to see an orthomolecular
physician/scientist? Their blood work is so extensive that, if you have a chemical
problem, they will likely discover it and give you relief with appropriate medications--
which can include vitamin boosts where they are needed.

Very likely you already have a drain on your system from stress. I'd do everything
possible in my power to reduce that to a minimum, if you can. Stress causes
real problems for acidic buildup in the tissues and fluids, and it makes depression
worse, just as alcohol and caffeine do for those sensitive to those two.

My husband always said, "You Don't Ever Give Up!". That was his view of almost
anything that stood in our way in life. And that is important, in my view. We don't
ever give up hope that something will come along that will prove to be the answer
for us, whether it's a new medical approach to your depression, the need for spiritual
attention for you spirit, the need for different environment--whatever it is, you may
be able to change things for your life if you are willing to make the effort.

Please try to encourage your little child within that she has hope for a much happier
and far more content life than she is experiencing right now, starting with a new
approach to diagnosis of your illness.