Thanks everybody for the feed back. I've been on a low all week (not the worst I've ever had) I'm just bottomed out with NO energy. It sucks because I work at night (6 pm to 4 am) and have been for four years but just getting the motivation to get up and go to work in the evening has been damn near impossible (I bartend, what a wonderful job for somebody that has anxiety, panic disorder, and bi polar with depression) I know I need to find something else that allows better hours and not as crazy but unfortunately my bills dictate my current income (really awesome stressor) I'm really trying to be kind to myself and realize I'm doing a damn good job given the circumstance. Unfortunately with me it's "all or nothing" and I don't give myself credit or personal time to myself for enjoyable things. Haven't taken a day off in over two years!!