Last night I had the worst body memory experience I have ever had. I couldn't control some of the things my body was doing. At one point I had to use my hands to keep from dislocating my jaw. It was like what I would imagine hell to be. I hadn't been feeling grounded for over a week. I had a bad session with my t. I was in a bad place. Like being inbetween what was real and not real. It was a very difficult experience physically and mentally. Today I feel exhausted and depressed. Almost numb emotionally. With all that I believe that what I experienced was a way for my body to release the memory of that trauma. I am not sure it won't happen again and that weighs on my mind. But I lived through it this time and if it happens again I will live through it again. Needed to get this out.