Fuzzy, you DO count. What you acheive, how you feel, the positive things you do, I'm telling you they do not go un-noticed. I may not know you as well as some other people, but i can tell you for sure that what you do on here is noticed. You are such a caring person who always is there to give a hug, or say something thoughtful, and I can guarantee that you've helped many people on here. No body deserved to be punished or ignorned, and you certainly don't. And I know how it sucks to always have this dark cloud over your head, or those negative hidden voices that randomly come out ... but, you just have to believe that one day they will ease. It is hard to always see the light at the end of the tunnel ... you just have to know that it is out there.
Take care