i have a roommate who has a boyfriend, they have a good relationship and havent even known each other that long maybe a few months.
i came home today to find the two of them lying down together.
even something like this, which isnt really even doing that much, it just makes me sad and depressed. i am happy for them but this brings out a lot of emotions in me

it made me think immediately of the guy that i am in love with.. and how i wish that i could lie down with him like that. and i got some images of him lying with his girlfriend, and spending a lot of time doing other things, (not even sexual things), then i felt hurt.
and now i just feel very depressed.

i thought, that my roommate probably has done a lot of things with her boyfriend and they havent even been together that long. then i think about the things that the guy that i love and his girlfriend, must be doing a lot more, that he must be lying down with her all the time and much more, and it hurts me even to think about this.
but i cant help to think about it.

i know there are other couples out there too, but something about it because shes my roommate and is so close to me, a person i see every day.. is doing this.. and it really hurts