I believe in gut instincts. If you've not managed to forgive your fella from withholding the fact he had a son yet, do you honestly feel like you ever will? You're very logical and smart (perhaps too logical), but I fear that the logical side hasn't won yet, and do you ever think it will after so long if you're honest with yourself? If you were going to forgive and accept, am sure it would've come easily by now.

I just see a lot of pain with your struggle - logical v emotional. Tough fight, but we're human, not like doc spock. I just hope you can be true to you and find happiness soon.

Lots of hugs.