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Originally Posted by riotgrrrl
I believe in gut instincts. If you've not managed to forgive your fella from withholding the fact he had a son yet, do you honestly feel like you ever will? You're very logical and smart (perhaps too logical), but I fear that the logical side hasn't won yet, and do you ever think it will after so long if you're honest with yourself? If you were going to forgive and accept, am sure it would've come easily by now.
I just see a lot of pain with your struggle - logical v emotional. Tough fight, but we're human, not like doc spock. I just hope you can be true to you and find happiness soon.
Lots of hugs.
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I am not sure if I can. To be perfectly honest, I have been too clouded by fear and anxiety over the kiddo factor to find any kind of forgiveness to see if it's possible. Forgiveness and acceptance isn't something I have ever been good at, so with that trait, your point is true. This might be the lesson that helps me to learn that aspect of myself. If I can't, then that lesson is for another lifetime and so is this relationship. I do feel like at times I am fighting a losing battle, but other times I feel like I am winning. We will see what the next week brings.
Thank you!
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