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Hello, I'm new here!=) Nice to "meet" you all!
just last week I told my story of how I was sexually abused at age 3 and then ages 11 until I was 17. See I am doing a book club/ study with a bunch of ladies from my church and the author talks about being abused in the book quite a bit.
I didn’t even mean to share with all (20 or so) of them my story but honestly, it was like It wasn’t me speaking the words I was saying, if that makes any sense, it very well may not. It’s all a blur, and I am not sure what all I told but I do remember saying something I really did not want to say. I think it just all came out at once because I held all it in for so long.
I thought after sharing I would feel better, but the day after I shared I felt (and am still feeling) so much guilt and I feel disgusting. I went to the group again this week and I just felt like everyone hated me and was thinking I was pathetic.
I know much of these feelings stem from me going to my mom when I was 17 years old and telling her I was being sexually abused by her boyfriend’s son, and she basically chose HIM over me… AND years later, he is still in our life.
I certainly feel I over shared.
Have any of you felt this way for sharing?? I just feel like I’m being judged now, but most of it is probably in my head.
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