Oh no, it's nothing of the kind. It's just that when you're at school you act childish and when you're at the library you see six year olds running around and they're able to run around free. At school and at the library, kids are admonished not to run but they're told to do so by an authoritative figure in a more respectable volume. If I were a child scampering around like that, they would have freaked out and lowered the boom on me. I hated the fact that when I was a child I was the black sheep. People always singled me out. Guys did it too. I thought that because I was not athletic, it made me feel like I was just different. I don't like that.