Hey. It can be hard to connect with therapists sometimes. Hard to come to understand each other...

Did you tell her that you felt awful when she brought out this huge list of your faults?

Maybe she was trying to persuade you to stick with her as she had an understanding of issues that you wanted to work on...

It can be hard to come to understand each other.

Silence is a tricky one. Some therapists are uncomfortable with silence. There is a hard balance between a therapist directing things so that the conversation rolls along and a therapist shutting the hell up so you get the opportunity to say what is on your mind and the therapist tolerating silence so you have time to think and intervening on silence so as to get the conversation moving along and prompt the client out of a 'stuck' place.

I guess the only way she will know how silence is for you is if you tell her.

> What am I suppose to do when she is cutting me down now?

Tell her that you feel invalidated :-(

She won't know how you feel if you don't tell her. Working on communication can be hard. Therapists don't tend to know what we are thinking or how we are feeling unless we tell them. That is really hard to come to grips with. I still have significant difficulty with that. I'd really encourage you to try and talk to her about how you feel about silences and how you feel attacked at times. She won't know if you don't tell her and it will give you practice communicating your feelings and thoughts for when you get another t (if you can't work things out with this one). Therapy can be hard work. I'm sorry things are hard for you right now.