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Originally Posted by dissy.defect
I am 15, I live with my family, and I had a childhood full of bullying and deep thinking. I'm dealing with depression (probably severe) and suicidal thoughts. The most traumatic thing that happened in my childhood was bullying, and it wasn't even that bad. I really am confused as to what is going on in my head, sorry I couldn't provide a better response.
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"Trauma" doesn't have to be a big single incident, but sometimes it can be the cumulative effect of friction in your family.
You mention you are dealing with suicidal thoughts in waking life, and in the dream two characters kill you. They could represent the side of you that wants to end your life. There seems to be some aggression there, in that side of you. Are you aware of conflicting impulses; one part of you that wants to end your life, and another part of you that wants to live? Are you aware of the specific thoughts and feelings that you are having when you want to end your life? How about when you want to live?
Are you able to tell your parents that you are suicidal? I hope they can provide you with professional help.
Mike