MMm, not sure I quite understand what it is you are wanting..but I know when I first entered therapy 2 yrs ago one of the first things I said was that I wanted to shoot my kids and their friends....my therapist said that that was just a fantasy...I dont know now how I felt so free to even tell her what I was thinking...other then the pain off holding such thoughts in my head was becoming unbearable...and I so wanted to love my kids and just be a loving mother...unyet my head would spoil it all the time.....now I know my fantasys are ok...sometimes I have nice ones...sometimes not so nice...but at least I know I'm not going to carry out my thoughts.....my T didn't seem fazed at all by my telling her my thoughts....its as if she already knows this stuff and I just needed to trust in her enought to handle my fears...which she did...