I know all about testing therapists myself... Printing out this thread and showing it to her is a good way to let her know how badly you feel. Curling up in a ball in her office is ok and communicates the pain as long as you can keep your actions contained to that. Agreed that bringing sharp objects may take this "out of her hands" because legally and ethicly she has to act. This will make her seem uncaring, even if she really really does care.

You both deserve a chance to work it though..."just ask" is a great way to go, but very hard. I've acted out too many times to count.