There is a theory on love which was developped in the 1960s (I think) and though not entirely scientific it can be useful in considering the people we fall in love with. According to this theory love consists of three components passion, compromise and intimacy. You can vary them and see the kind of love you have for this man.

COnsider your case, it would be a case of infatuation. The main point really is to bear in mind that no one can take away the veracity of your emotions or ridicule them, they are something you feel and geniunely mean, you should consider however the negative this could have on you and the nature of your love for him.

Have you made attempts to be his friend?