Not really sure where to put this post - lots of things are going on. My husband is bipolar and I think I am catching it - at least the depression side, I feel so angry with him at times. This morning I was getting ready for work in the living room and I could smell him - he is going thorugh a period of time where he refuses to take a shower - it is making me insain. He says he is taking his medication but I don't think they are working as well as we need them too. He has been diagnosed with this disease for 11 years and I'm tired - I want out. He doesn't work, he is on disability, he doesn't help out around the house, he sits and watches TV all the time and gripes about everything. I work full time and take care of my father - another great story - we learned around Halloween this year that he has molested children, several including my older brother. Now he is living with me, he is 83 and has offered to register as a sex offender and he cries every time we try to talk about it. I have lots of questions/concerns but don't know exactly how to handle this situtation - I want out of this situation as well. I would just like to move off and leave the two of them to fend for themselves. I can take care of me - but I can't keep taking total care of these two. I have two grown children, one Friday after thanksgiving moved to South Korea for a year of teaching (great for him but hard for me) the other is in college about an hour away from home, which is good I see him often enough but he doesn't have to live in this crazy environment.

I don't know why I am posting this, just needed to vent - I have been crying almost daily since the beginnning of November, I'm sure a great deal of it is to do with learning of my father's past, worrying about my sons, myself and my brothers, put that ontop of taking care of my husband and my son leaving and I think I am just at the limits of my ability to handle everything in a rationale manner.