I was hypo most of last night...i get like that before some kind of event...like my vacation.
Most people have anticipation of an event, I get all hyped up and cant sleep, sometimes for days (I may get a couple hours here and there but usually never more than 3 at one time, and most of that three hours is spent in twilight...not getting REM sleep but definitely relaxed)
So now I am on vacation...have many many things to do before I get my daughter on Sunday for the week.
I cannot wait to have her live with me for the week. I miss her SO much! I love her SO much!
It's her manipulative mother I can do without. Yes, I have my issues, and I was a SOB for all the porn and emotional affairs. But damn, now we are living our own lives and she has not changed one damn bit...and she CANNOT see it! All her friends think she is just fine.
Personally, I dont think much of her "friends" because they just can't convinceme that she is not manipulative.
But since I am the one with all the issues diagnosed, everything is MY fault.
BPDII or not, it. aint. all. my. fault. PERIOD.