I wish I knew what happened to my brain from my psychosis. I just know that it was about 10 months long and incredibly intense. Things are coming back very slowly, like my sense of humor, ability to enjoy music, and motivation-they're not consistent but they're at least making an appearance every once in awhile. For the longest time-2 years-I was convinced I lost my Self forever. Starting seroquel in Jan. helped a lot too.
Hang in there. Finding the right meds can take a long time.
I wish it was like on TV where you're crazy, you take medication and then you're okay!