Okay, so, I am having another dilemma. Things just keep going downhill recently and I'm not sure what to do.

I have no job at the moment, and I'm currently searching and applying as much as I can to try and find something.

I got a job interview at Kohls this past Tuesday and I think it went okay. I felt like I did decently enough. However, they wanted your work as your reference and for those who have followed my other posts, you might be able to guess why this concerns me. My boss was a *****. She was horrible. She blamed me for things that were actually her fault and I tried explaining it was a misunderstanding and she cut my hours because of it.

I don't know what to do, because I have a strong feeling she's going to tell them bad things about me and they won't want me to come work for them, even though I really, really, REALLY want this job. I've never wanted a job this badly before. I'm already expecting not to get the job, but if I don't, I'm going to be very, very depressed. I know it doesn't seem like such a big deal, but it is for me.

I'm not concerned about my first job where I missed a lot of work because my past job called them and they hired me, so I don't think he's saying anything bad about me. It's just my most recent job that I'm concerned with.

What do I do if she is saying bad things about me? I'm not ever going to get a job if she keeps telling them I'm unreliable or not a good worker, when that is totally BS. I was the only one doing a good job, aside from two others out of the 10 that worked there.

My mom said that I could ask why I didn't get the job and if they say, I can tell them that I admit I made some mistakes, but I'm really wanting to prove now that I can be a good worker.

But if she is saying bad stuff about me, what am I supposed to do about that?

I feel like the universe is out to get me right now, because my hopes keep getting built up and now they're being shot down one by one, leaving me feeling like everything is pointless and that my previous job and my boss's mistake is going to screw me over.

Why do the bad things have to happen to the good people?