I wish I could knock on the doors of the ones who abused me and tell them what I think of them and let their families know what they did to me and I pray that they are not doing the same to their children or any child past or present. But, I will never have that chance, they live in another state or might not even live there anymore or even be alive anymore ( I wish ).

I have not survived the abuse, it effects everything I do. It is something that I can never forget no matter how hard I try. I can push it to the back of mind for a little while but, it always finds it way right back up front to destroy whatever little bit of happiness I might be feeling at the time.

I just know I am here and try hard not to let take my life away completely for the sake of my husband and children. I am here for anyone who needs someone to talk to. So pm me if you want to vent or just say HI.

All you can do is try and try as hard as you can and maybe, just maybe, you get moments of happiness that can erase for a short time the pain of what happened to you.