hello everyone,
i am new to the forum. i happen to find the website while doind some research on depression. i was diagnosed with unspecified psychosis when i was 15. i took the quiz for bipolar disorder and scored a 50, according to the test this is indicative of a probable bipolar I diagnosis. i am in a current state of depression. i have not been able to snap out of it. i've been like this for approximately 4 weeks and counting. i have 2 children and a husband, work full time and got to school part time. i am feeling really overwhelmed, have not been so productive at work this month. i have irrational fears. feel like satan is in my room. now how can i confide that to a therapist without them wanting to hospitalize me or even worse assume that i am a danger to my children. how can i get good help if i do not trust the outcome of it. i am not in therapy right now but am seriuosly considering going back because i know i should. the last therapist i had was horrible. she would take calls to discuss her lunch plans and tell me i shouldn't expect to be "superwoman". i told her that when she if she was willing to pay my bills she could tell me to take a break from work. needless to say she's out of my life. anyway i am here for support and to lend some support as well. thanks for listening.