I've been in therapy for a couple months now. After starting to dig up very painful and traumatic memories I started to feel very very painful and intense emotions. I don't know why I have them or with what they are associated with. Last week I just couldn't cope and I emotionally shut down. I feel like my T is kind of dissapointed in me for doing this. I want to feel my feelings I do, but I just can't. I decided to sit with my feelings if they come up and just feel them. This is when they go away and I just feel physical sensations. When I try to find the source of my pain I get very defensive with myself, and I think this is so stupid and it's like a voice is saying to me what the hell are you trying to do. Its like there is a barrier blocking my emotions. And I just cant get past it. I will discuss this with my T in my next session. But I was wondering if any of you experience such defensiveness, and a barrier that you can't get past? How did you deal with it? Sometimes I feel like I'm terrified of my emotions.