Hi and welcome to Psych Central. It does sound like you are depressed. Do you have a therapist to help you sort things out. I know the right antidepressant and therapy sure turned my world around. I still every now and then get a general apathy toward life so i ascribe to the 'do good to feel good' philosophy. i buy clothes that make me feel good, i watch tv shows or movies that make me laugh, socialize only with people who are positive, complement myself for a job well done because i cant expect anybody else to. just little things that make me smile and i live from smile to smile. anyway, keep posting. you will find a lot of support here.